Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Blog, blog, blog

Nothing really important to say, just dumping a few things out into the black hole called the internet.

I did something to my knee over the weekend at the tournament. It's not hurt bad, it's just a little swollen and tender. I'm hoping it gets better for this weekend's tourney.

I'll definitely need to be in top form since we'll be racing all of the top teams in the region. Freddie won't care, but I'll be a bit stressed. I don't think we'll be taking home the blue ribbon this weekend. :) Ah well.

My home phone is all messed up right now. I was on the phone when the battery died and now I can't get a dial tone. I'm hoping it clears up soon, but as I'm a tiny bit cranky today, it's probably a good thing that noone can get through.

Work was insane today, which means it wasn't productive at all. I had meetings from 10am to 3pm and then got a barrage of bizarre emails all complaining about one thing or another. If the calendar didn't say Tuesday, I'd swear it was Monday.

Kathy, a co-worker from McLean, came up to spend some time and have a few meetings with the rest of us for a few days. We went out to dinner after work to catch up and have a beer. It was fun.

Right now I'm sitting on the couch with all the dogs and 1 cat piled up around me. Monster Jam is on and I'm switching between blogging (as thoughts come) and homework. I think I'm going to dump the computer all together and concentrate on Jim Koehler's run in the Avenger (I so love Monster Trucking!) I do plan on taking a trip down to CT to see a show this year. Wanna come? :)


Monday, January 30, 2006

A little deep...?

After sleeping for 10-11 hours, I'm finally up. I'm on the couch, under a blanket, surrounded by 6 dogs and a cat (I don't know where Captain is...he could be under the blanket!), with a cup of coffee and the TV on in the background. Captain just jumped up on the couch and is now laying on top of all the dogs under the blanket.

I guess I'm in a reflective mood as I'm thinking of obscure, but somewhat deep things. I'm not sure if this is going to make any sense, as my thoughts aren't following a direct path, they're just popping out as they happen. I also don't know where they're coming from but that's usually how it happens. So, here goes nothing! (what the heck does that saying mean anyway?)

People evolve over time. Nobody is the same person they were even 5 years ago. There are a number of factors that could change a person; experience, people, learning, etc., etc. What I wonder is, if anyone can recognize that these instances are the reason why they change. Can anyone look back at one particular person and pinpoint what took place that made them think or act differently? Or how about a situation? Does it have to be a special situation where something exciting or dramatic happens? Could it just be a regular Friday night out with friends? Is it all experiences that alter a person's way of thinking or just the memorable, crappy, or exciting ones? Do feelings need to be involved for a change to happen? Again, is it just the extreme feelings or could the simple boredom of a lazy Saturday afternoon start the process of change?

Personally, I think it's all of those plus things I haven't yet thought of. I think our.... soul, for lack of a better word, is shaped and altered with every moment of our lives. The difficulty lies in recognizing each factor behind the change. Sure, some things are easier to pinpoint than others. For example, because of that really crappy situation with the Cement Co. truck, I *always* get nervous and look in the rearview mirror if traffic stops short. That's easy. I know why I do it and I know the cause behind it. It becomes much harder when you try to figure out the benign stuff. Walking down the street and you pass a person, does that effect change? Normally you probably wouldn't pay attention to that person unless something jumped out at you about them. But if absolutely nothing memorable happens and you barely notice the person at all, how does that affect you? I have to think that in some subconscious way it does, but I couldn't begin to guess how.

Even thinking back to the people that have been in my life, I'm not sure what change happened specifically because of them. But I have changed, so..... Life happens so quickly, I also wonder if it's even possible to notice the small stuff anymore. I also wonder if it's important to do so - if we're missing out on this great learning experience. Or if that's how things are supposed to happen because otherwise, we'd be too intent on analyzing all of the small stuff instead of living life.

I'm not sure if any of this makes sense. Sometimes it does, and other times it's overwhelming. I'm also not sure if there's an answer, or if these thoughts are just the result of a dream I can't remember. There's a certain beauty in the unknown, but it can be frustrating at times. Is that where the saying "c'est la vie" comes from? Is it there as a way for people to stop thinking and just move on?

I don't know about you, but it makes me think....


Sunday, January 29, 2006

First Place - woohoo!

Freddie and I had a flyball tournament this weekend up at American K9 Country in New Hampshire. Freddie did pretty good - he was pretty solid until the last race or so on Saturday and Sunday. He starts to mess up when he gets tired. Since it's only the 2nd tournament after having 3 months off, it's understandable. I'm not exactly sure how we pulled it off, but we went into the last race being tied for 1st place. I thought for sure we got bumped down when we lost the last race, but apparently that didn't matter since the other two teams we were tied with also lost one race a piece. So, at the very end, it came down to the fastest times and apparently we had it. I do like adding blue ribbons to his collection. :)

We have another tournament next week up at All Dogs Gym in Manchester. Thankfully it's a one day tournament (Saturday) so I'll still have time to relax, clean the house, and do laundry. Ugh. I need a maid. :) Anyway, we will be short a ton of people so if anyone (hem, hem - you) would like to volunteer to be our boxloader, please let me know. :)

I'm sure you're wondering why there hasn't been an update since that great kiss. Well, it ended up not working out as well as that kiss was. So, after having such a great experience with that kiss, it ended up being the best part of our time together. Ah well. :) The kiss was still great and I'm sure I'll be the recipient of more. ;)

I have tomorrow off and only minor things to do, so I'll get to relax aplenty. :) I'm off to watch more Monster Truck!


Tuesday, January 24, 2006

The Kiss

There are many different types of kisses/kissing. The kind you give to your family, a different type for friends (for those of us that kiss our friends hello & goodbye), the kind you give to someone you're interested in, the type you give when lust is in control, another type for animals (ok, that might just be me ), etc., etc.

Personally, I am particularly fond of kissing - and I mean in the type that you give to people you're interested in (and above) - otherwise known as making out, swapping spit, or what-have-you. I enjoy kissing. I can kiss for hours and not get bored. I can have music on in the background or it could be dead silent, I don't need a specific ambiance in order to kiss.

Then, there's the "sneak attack" kiss. The kiss that you weren't expecting. The one that came out of nowhere. The unplanned, spontaneous one. That particular kiss is my favorite of all time. I really hadn't put too much thought into which type I liked better, but I got a sneak attack kiss the other day and that got me thinking - obviously.

The kiss itself was really very, very nice. Very smooth, not awkward at all, seamless even. We had the same style, same timing, same pressure, same everything. Coupled with the fact that it was a sneak attack kiss, well, that just made me melt. :) Thinking about it now, days later, my stomach still does a little flip - it was that good. It was such a nice surprise, I took out my journal, which hasn't been used since 2003, and wrote it all down - all the gory, treasured details that I want to remember.

Never again will a kiss from this person be as good as the first one. Don't misunderstand, they will be welcomed and they will be pleasurable. We will thoroughly enjoy it and continue to want more. But they won't ever have the same element of surprise, the same complete shock with no sense of expectation behind it.

That's something worth remembering. That's something worth writing about.


Friday, January 20, 2006


Yep, I need gutters. It's been on the list of things to do since I bought the house, but you have to prioritize when you don't have billions, millions or thousands in the bank to deal with these things. :) I really do have a "To do" list for the house that I made right after my home inspection. There are 42 items on it and 21 of them are crossed off. Of course some of them are easy, silly things like "paint bedroom" and "rip up living room rug", but it's good to have a list of things that I can go back to when I feel like a slacker. :)

Actually, as I'm thinking about it, there's a few things I need to add to the list. Damn. The list went up to 53 put I was able to take off another 5. They say you're never done working on a house and I believe "they"!

But back to gutters. I have a company coming over for a quote tomorrow morning. I saw a booth they had at the world of wheels. I guess they're more expensive than normal gutters as they have some "patented leaf guard system", whatever the hell that is. So now I'm seriously thinking of getting gutters and figuring out where else to get a quote from. I can figure out how much they'll cost if I do them myself. I think Sears might install gutters as well. And I'm sure there's probably some local company - Gutters 'R Us - or something.

Anyone know what gutters are going for these days? Or any reliable companys that install gutters in my area? :)


Thursday, January 19, 2006

work, work, work, and homework

This week has been a very busy week! I'm not exactly sure what happened, but all of a sudden I have a bunch to do! I worked Tuesday night, last night, tonight, and I found out today I'm up for Saturday afternoon as well. Yikes.

I have a billion chapters to read for homework, which I conveniently forgot at work. Although it really doesn't matter since I finished playing with that XML document and now I'm off to do more compare reports before testing the database that's moving to the new server tonight.

I was so hoping for a Tivo night too. :(

On the bright side, I found an awesome deal on a computer today so I should be receiving it next week sometime. Yay! Moving everything over will be quite the bitch, but well worth it. I just have to remember to bring all my software home so I can get the new PC up and running with work stuff. Here's hoping for a good tax return! ;)


Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Oh my gosh...

...when did I become a "Ma'am"?

I stopped at the supermarket for a few things today. I was looking for the cans of whole tomatos - like you'd use for sauce, etc. I went into the pasta aisle, nope. Then I went to the veggie aisle and I didn't see any. I asked the guy that was stocking shelves where they were and he moved his cart to show me they were behind it. He then asked "Can I help you with anything else, Ma'am?"

Ma'am?!?! He should've punched me in the gut - would've caught me less of guard. I feel like I'm a miss! Not a Ma'am! Is it ridiculous for me to start worrying about the miss/ma'am thing?? (Yes, I know it is, but it's my blog and I can vent about anything I want to :) )

I'm too young to be a Ma'am! I don't want to be a Ma'am! Aren't you supposed to have wrinkles before you're called a Ma'am? How about gray hair? (Not that you could see mine anyway...) Ok, at least wrinkles first!



Monday, January 16, 2006

Jumble of Things...

It's amazing how much can happen in 5 days. :) A bunch of stuff, thoughts, and things have happened or are happening so it's all being dumped today. :)

We've had crazy weather lately. The last couple of days have been in the mid-to-high 50's, which was really, really nice!! But now it's gone back down to brrr cold (13 right now) and I think it's wreaked havoc with my tulips!! I saw tiny shoots the other day and I'm really hoping the bitter cold won't completely kill the bulbs. I need to check the Paul Parent site to see if he has any recommendations. I covered the shoots with some leaves and mulch, hoping that would help. Fingers crossed!!

Joe & Ellin came by on Saturday morning to hang out and drop off my new (for me) fireplace. Ellin was driving around town where she lives and saw this metal fireplace with a for sale sign on the curb. She stopped to see how much it was ($40) and then called to tell me about it knowing full well that a fireplace in this house would be soooo perfect. :) I said scoop it up and Joe went to take a look at it - make sure it was solid, in good condition, usable, etc. It's in *awesome* condition so they grabbed it for me and brought it up on Saturday. Most people would probably think it's ugly since it's orange, but I love the color orange! I have to find out from the town what the rules are for installing it and then getting it worked into the budget. The other good thing is that Joe has a friend that is getting rid of a ton of slate pieces. So I plan on making the walls behind it (it's a corner unit) non-combustible and then tiling it with the slate. It should look great. :)

Bag 'o Purple
Before carrying in the fireplace, Joe & Ellin carried in a big bag full of stuff for me - things that she picked up while out and a few b-day presents. It ended up being the big bag '0 purple stuff! If you haven't guessed it, purple is my favorite color and I tend to collect any and all purple things. :) My bedroom is purple, my bathroom has purple in it, & my kitchen has a grape theme. She bought me these beautiful, matching, purple tablecloths and napkin sets (which I'll be able to use for an upcoming event), for my birthday. Also, while out one day at Walmart, she saw a billion Xmas decorations that were all purple. The last couple of years I've had the "purple" tree (not really a surprise) and the bulbs and things she got will fit perfectly with it. They were all very unique and quite purple. :) I gave her $10 for this huge bag of decorations she picked up at the 75% off sale - gotta love after holiday sales!

Birthday Dinner
Saturday night we went out to Bison County to celebrate my birthday. Dad, Betsy, Keith, Sue, Chris, Elissa, Zeke, Cathy, & Kim were all there and we had a fabulous time. :) We sat in the alcove off of the bar so the guys could watch football. It had every 'favorite' element I have - good friends, good food, good beer, & good conversation all at the same time. Kim, Cathy, & I went back to Cathy's house where we watched the Pats game and chatted for hours. I had a *great* time! Thanks guys for making it a wonderful night. :)

Speaking of football, a big thumbs down to the refs of the Pats & Steelers games for making two of the worst calls I've seen in a long time. I don't spend Sundays watching the games anymore, but I understand what's happening and will watch them if they're on. I guess I'd be considered a fairweather fan but I'm not so sure that's the case since I don't really care who wins. :) (Except the home team of course)

While Joe & Ellin were up, we did a bit of discount shopping (my favorite kind) and I managed to find purple sheers that are *perfect* for my bedroom. We put them up and they are sooo much nicer than what was up before. It's the small things that make me happy and if two $4 sheers will do it, so much the better for me. :) I do have to get back there today to pick up two more for the closet opening - I do want them to match after all. :)

Flyball practice went very well on Sunday. Freddie had much better swimmers turns on the box this week by adding a knee into it on top of a FedEx box. That probably doesn't make sense for anyone that doesn't know flyball, but it's almost impossible to explain so that's what you get. :) Pacey is doing well on going over the jumps. I can't really tell if he's single striding over the jumps yet as I'm running away from him while he's doing it, but his recall was faster this week, or so it seemed to me. :)

My youngest cousin, Mary, is going to her semi-formal this weekend. I stopped by there on Sunday after flyball practice to work out what we were going to do with her hair for the dance. While there, I had lunch (frittatta sp?) with my grandparents and spent some time chatting with them. I hate to see them getting older and having to deal with all the health problems that come with it. :( But they're still fairly active and I love spending as much time as I can with them. They're really cute. :)

After stopping by my Aunt's house, I stopped by my Dad's house (that's where I saw that awful incomplete pass call on the Steeler's interception) to cut his hair before his trip to Florida. He's going for 2 weeks (the lucky bastard) as a present to himself for his 50th birthday this year. I think we'll plan a party for him to celebrate the milestone. :)

It's been a busy week and I'm hoping it will slow down for a bit. :) I did *nothing* last night but catch up with Tivo (monster jam, extreme home makeover, law & order.) I have today off and the big plans are: homework, laundry, & cleaning, my all-time favorite activity.. not. Since it's noon now and I've only stared on the laundry part, I have to kick it into gear and get rolling. :)


Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Happy Birthday to me....

The first song I think of every year on my birthday is Birthday by the Beatles.

"They say it's your birthday - It's my birthday too ya"

Unfortunately I do *not* feel like working, which is just making the day d-r-a-g by. I don't have any big plans today, everything's happening on Saturday. Someday when I hit that lottery, I'll be having my birthday party on some tropical island. :)

Ugh - I don't wanna work!


Saturday, January 7, 2006

it was a good day....

Today was the first flyball tournament since October. Freddie didn't do as well as he normally does, but I'm thinking it's because of the long break. We only had a couple of practices since then as well so he's a little rusty. :) Or at least that's what I'm going with. ;)

But he did do well, running 3 times in one heat to pull off the win against another team. Ok, he had to run 3 times because he went around the jumps the first time, and then dropped the ball before the last jump the 2nd time, but the third time was clean, if not a little slow. :)

I brought the flyball box home with me today so I could work on his box turns, as well as start training Pacey on the box. Freddie does not have a good swimmer's turn at all - never has. He kinda likes to *splat* on the box more than anything else, which isn't good for his shoulders. So I'm going to see what I can do about that. Since I know he loves it, I'd like to keep him in the game as long as he's physically able to do it. Blowing out his shoulders won't really help that. ;)

We're both pretty tired right now so I'm going to go relax a bit before heading over to my cousin's house for dinner. I think it's going to be an early night for me!!


Friday, January 6, 2006

small updates...

So my hair came out wicked and I'm very happy with it. :) I had a poll going at work and with friends on what colors should be added. I've done a lot with my hair, different mixtures of colors, light on the top, dark underneath, etc., etc. I wanted to do something I hadn't done before. Right before my hairdresser got me, I was set on a red base with thin black strips on top and black tips in the back. She talked me out of that one quickly as the only way to get black out is to bleach the hell out of it - read, fry your hair. So, we decided on the same design but with blonde highlights. Depending on how it's parted, it's either completely blonde on top, or it has stripes (sounds weird I know), and the back has 3-4 inches of blonde going from the tips, up. Not as funky as I was planning, but I'm still thrilled with it. (There's a pic on my MySpace acct.)

Today my car is getting the rest of the stuff done to it - sticker, storage compartment cover, and alignment. I met Chuck's boss at Naked Fish this morning to switch cars. Chuck will bring my car up to my house after he's done with work. Then I have to head over to All Dogs to reserve our team space, and we have plans to go to Tokyo's for dinner. I love Teppanyaki!

Tomorrow we have a one-day tournament at All Dogs Gym in Manchester. It should be a fun, stress-free time. :) We have a 2-day tourney at the end of this month and another one-day tourney the weekend after. I remember 3 years ago there were 2 tourneys a year! It's nice that there are so many now that we can pick and choose which ones we want to attend.

Sunday, a bunch of us are heading to the World of Wheels in Boston. Should be fun!!

Ok, really busy day at work so that's all for now. :)


Tuesday, January 3, 2006

2 down, one to go...

I can't believe the holidays are already gone. Time moves way too quickly these days....

So two holidays are done, Xmas & New Years, so there's just one more - my birthday. Thankfully it doesn't require nearly as much time, planning or money! This year I think we're doing a trip to Bison County for dinner. More details as they come up.

I didn't end up going out on NYE, I stayed in, watched a movie and rang the new year in in a spiritual way instead. It was very nice - lots of good energy. :)

But, since the holidays are over, I'm all screwed up when it comes to days and time! I will never complain about a day off, but it's hard getting into the swing of things again. :)

I have a hair appt. tomorrow - THANKFULLY! I'm in the mood to do something a little different - kinda funky - but I can't think of anything that I haven't already done. I'm considering all red with thin black streaks and black tips. We'll see if I lose my funk before tomorrow night.

Ok, off to training!